Devil's Kiss and Angel's Wish

2009-12-01T23:50:00.003+08:00

it's been a long time since my last post...lol. guess i dun really see the need to update anymore. anyways. holidays has been sucky. as most of my frens know, manda and me hav been grounded for our bad grades, lifestyle, attitudes and wat not, so we haven't gone out with frens at all. tat's really screwed up. but luckily, my parents still let us go out when it's a family outin. i watched 2012 with my siblings a while ago. great show. didn't really hav a plot though, but quite a cool show with nice effects. but the theatre sucked big time..sigh. hmm...wat else...oh yeah! had my last church camp a few wks ago! SO.DAMN.FREAKIN.AWESOME!!! info on manda's blog since i'm too lazy to write-_-" but this was like the best camp eva! actually all 3 camps were nice...all for different reasons. sec 1 was becuz of *** and sec 2 was coz i was in manda's group and we stayed up to talk and gossip with some facilitators abt stuff like dream weddings, random stuff and some really interestin stuff. lol. then sec 3 was coz i was with my clique=) more frankly speakin, i was with the ppl from my class tat i was more close to than others. like my sis, amanda fong, alicia fong, michelle and melissa! and the 2 guys was dylan and ted. and well, i was really glad since they r the guys tat i'm more close to than others. also, this year, we mixed around more with the guys and spoke to them much more than last time, since guys and gals talkin was considered 'taboo' in previous years. lol. so yeah. really gonna miss camp. and i'm so goin if there's gonna be a post-confirmation camp!
moving along...erm...i went to orchard like once or twice this month. once was for dinner with family and theother was to help my bro/ acompany him to buy clothes. he's so vain now sia-.-" so yeah. then we went to the airport to pick my mum up, she came back from a business trip, and went to eat swensens! yummy! and i felt so fat sia. haah. then like the followin day or somethin went to pick my dad up at the airport. haha so sian of the airport. today went to amanda fong's house to study. haha. did SOME studyin and ate. a lot. haha ok not so much but i loved her nea zealnd's cookies and cream ice cream! delicious=) haha. ate it with hershey's dark chocolate syrup. heavenly...haha. yup. and i'm officially DEAD since i haven't done any hw or revision..(which we were supposed to be doin while being grounded, but manda and me hav been slackin at home...) so yeah. die. die. die...
gdbye.

2009-11-04T11:02:00.005+08:00

the halloween party was speechless. haha. it was definitely memorable! the bbq was ruined since it rained but the best part was when some of us jumped into the pool! haha. since my costume was soaked from the rain, i juz decided to swim in them. haha. awesome experience=0 then we also bbq in the rain. lol. anyways. ended up sick the next few days. sore throat and headache and wat not. and TPC was a total screw-up. haiz. life isn't well for me. it sucks. BIG TIME.
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my life is now a fuckin hell hole. i dun even wanna go home coz i dun wanna see their faces. i nvr thought our relationship would turn like this. i haven't spoken to my mum in like a week. not coz I dun want to, it's coz SHE doesn't want to. and obviously my dad will always side her. they make an awesome ass pair. such screwed up ppl. some ppl might say i'm a bitch and wat not for talkin abt my parents this way, but seriously speaking, if they were to live with them durin this period of time, i think they'd hav run away from home by now. which i'm contemplating everyday. i can't even breathe when i'm at home. know y? coz their attitudes are suffocating me. they're takin away all the good in my life. my dad has been shoutin every fuckin day. i mean it's our bad habits and faults for behavin this way. not bathin straight after we come home, not plannin our time properly. but hello?! it my fuckin life! i can do wat i want with it. and i know countless of ppl who hav the same problem as me but their parents dun give them hell because of it. so y r my parents like tat? it's coz they're juz ******* and ******* and should juz disappear from my life. now i understand those kids tat hav family problems and run away from home. but i'm not takin drugs or stealing or killing or smokin or having underaged sex right?! so y r they so fucked up and angry? and my dad said last night, when he was shouting at like 11pm like a mad man, "this is your last chance, u'd better not FUCK with me, u both(ammy and me) can go and cry all u want tonight, cry urselves to slp coz i'm gonna make sure tat i make u two cry a lot more if this happens again."

how the fuck can u talk to ur daughters like tat? and i mean DAUGHTERS. he nvr spoke to my brothers this way. even when my brother did something bad and got canings in school. huh. and trust me, he's said worse things. every fuckin night manda and me hav to cry ourselves to slp. and seeing her hurt is really fuckin pissin me off. i'm fuckin angry and agitated and so fucked up tat i'm fuckin close to snapping. trust me, if someone were to agitate and annoy me just a little bit i'm gonna fuckin snap like a twig. hah. i've used like countless of F words already. in this paragraph alone i've used 7. wtv. the only reason y i know i can't run away from home is coz i hav O level chem SPA on friday. maybe after tat. who knows.

2009-10-28T01:25:00.004+08:00

ok. haven't blogged in ages. i hav been goin out quite a bit but too lazy to blog. srry=( haha. can chack out ammy's blog for those updates since i go almost everywhere with her. lol.
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yesterday went ok. heart to heart talk. let it out. almost setttled. but i dunno if it's fully settled. we'll see in the future.
BUT I LUV ALL OF U GUYS LOADS NO MATTER WAT<3
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today went to orchard(again...been there so many times. too often tat i'm kinda sick of it.) with ammy, my cousin, uncle and aunt. they went to far east to check out a few shops there cos my cuz wants to rent a space to sell her clothes, and her parents went with her. me and ammy went ion first to check out the mask and fan at monsoon. then headed to far east to meet up with them and then we continued searching for costume accesories. after awhile, met up with my cousin and family again. then aunt and uncle left while the three of us went to walk walk. haha i've been to so many costume/accesories/halloween shops tat i've nvr been to or didn't know existed. the stuff were cool but too $$$. haha. so ended up buying the mask at ion. we decided to not buy the feathery fan cause it'll look weird with the feathery mask. haha. my cousin said i would look like a bird. haha. i've got the nice dress from my cousin also since she has her stock at her house. and wat's more, it's free!!! haha so i dun hav to pay her even though the dress was for sale. i feel kinda guilty but she said i dun need to pay. I LUV HER LOADS!<3 even though she's like 22, we can still click with her and i realise as we grow older, we become closer to her. cool much=) so yup. hopefully my mum will allow manda and me to go for the halloween party this friday, cause if not then i think i'll be devastated! hahs. but i dun really know if my outfit is considered a costume...a dark navy dress with a turqoise feathery mask...hmm. i dunno. manda and me wanted to do a masquerade sort of outfit. oh well.
omg lah. tomorrow startin extended studies. can die sia. i'm so damn scared for o levels, it's only a year away. from here on, it's gonna be a really stressful year and i'm not lookin forward to it. sigh.....

2009-10-15T23:50:00.002+08:00

hello.
been a while since my last post.
lots of things hav happened.
lots of things hav been revealed.
and yet
more mysteries juz keep "blossoming"...

the FYEs r screwed i suppose. well wat can i expect? i studied the day before after all...
the pasy 2 wks hav been 'eventful'.

-went to brenda's house a few times. beautiful house. awesome porch. nice family. haha. i sound like i'm a
commentator on family lifestyles and all tat crap. anyways. had a super fun time hanging out with her and also tat day
when ten, amira, me and ammy went to B's house again.
-skipped 2 days of school. one on purpose and the other coz we couldn't wake up...so we went to marine parade polyclinic.
first time i've EVER stepped into a polyclinic in my life. lol. so called vic to come down and take mc with us. ammy and me
were like lost sheep ok, didn't even know how to register...the security guard so nice go and help us=) hahs. went library and
then vic came over to my house to "study". hah. shan't elaborate.
-erm... i seriously can't remember anythin. omg. i'm growin old way too fast. sighs.

today was interclass netball competition. we lost...wtv. haha. i luv u guys but sometimes i get irritated. it's human nature. srry. then went to the marina barrage trail. at first i thought it was walking for 3 hrs under the hot sun. but i was wrong. it was really breezy there and we didn't walk much. i've learnt something today=) when u wanna go on a tour at the marina barrage building thing, dun hire a tour guide. coz it's seriously WAY more fun when u walk and explore with ur frens.overall, i thought the excursion rocked! the ppl there were awesome so obviously i had an awesome time. but it'll definitely hav been more fun if fai and fuzz were there. hope they get well soon.

i'm so confused abt everythin. i hope to settle things soon so we can get back together as one big happy "family"=) ok? hurry!

gdbyes.

2009-10-01T23:41:00.002+08:00

the past week has been awesome=) tuesday was icc with ammy, dylan, bradley and their kc fren cheryl. bradley is dylan's cousin and he and cheryl are nice ppl! then to the T3 airport. 'studied'. haha sorta. then wednesday was the freakin bomb! manda and me went brenda's house. her house damn nice!!! and the best part was the DRIVE there! wooh!! i was so freakin excited abt it=) haha. coz ????? drove us to brenda's house and he's only 15yrs old! he use his dad's car. hahahahah. so damn awesome!!! i cannot contain my excitement=] lol. so surreal. i wanna do it again! the past week i hav been talkin to dylan a bit and i found out tat he's a really fun person to talk to! haha.
ok. after i finish my exams i wanna go brenda's house and go out more with dylan and go out with my clique! haha.
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i hope u're ok. u dun sound ok the past few days. i wanna talk to u abt EVERYTHIN tat has happened and stuff. coz i'm seriously worried for u. hope to c u soon.
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gdbye.

2009-09-28T00:55:00.004+08:00

F1=AWESOMEST=CRAZIEST=LOUDEST=FUNNEST=BESTEST TIME I EVER HAD!

today manda and me went to the F1 race day. obviously it's freakin awesome. lol. we were late but who cares. then we didn't sit at our sits long coz we went to walk walk=) we missed practically the whole race coz we went to look for ted. though it feels disappointin and like it's a waste of tickets, i wouldn't want today to be any other way.=] coz i REALLYREALLYREALLY enjoyed myself and well...let's juz say the experience was more than i expected. haha. anyway. saw ted's family, who r like awesome and friendly and nice and fun! haha ted's juz like his dad. they act similar and even dress similar. i feel so guilty. i made manda angry. and i made her miss the race coz of my selfishness. i'm really sorry ammy=( i said i'm gonna make it up to her somehow. i was tellin her tat i would rather come here with my frens and enjoy the experience, rather than sit in a chair and watch 61 laps of the same thing. the only thing i regret is not being able to c the car crash! coz from my seat i can actually c it. but there's nothin i can do abt it now. then walked around with ammy and ted and then we left like at 10 plus comin to 11. super late. and i haven't even studied. yet again. sighs.

today was also the P3's first holy communion! they were all so damn cute!!!!! like brides and grooms. and the decor in the canteen had hearts so i was sayin it was like valentine's or some match-makin session. lol. i ate lunch at siglap macs b4 the event with ammy, petrina, dylan, earl and louise. saw some other church ppl there. haha shall not elaborate=)

2009-09-17T20:31:00.006+08:00

things hav happened.
secrets hav been told.
the airport trip yesterday was meaningful
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they hav parted. it's shocking and extremely heartbreakin. it still seems so surreal, i guess the fact of the break up hasn't sunk in yet. now all i hope for is tat she'll be ok. tat he'll be ok. tat they'll be able to carry on with their lives.
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F. , juz know tat we're here for u. i know u know tat. the past few days hav been the worst days ever, and it was really heart breaking to c u like tat. but everythin'll get better in time and we'll be with u every step of the way. look at wat i wrote in tat poem, it's from my heart and it'll help u. like we said, u can miss him, support him and wait for him, but u must try to reduce it. like wat u're doin now. coz the circle of life nvr stops spinning and though bad things hav happened, life must go on. we'll be with u anytime u need comfort. so i juz wish for u to feel better soon and smile again=)

you can cry, you can grieve. but all in all, you must live.

to the other F. , i had no idea u had gone through tat. my heart really goes out to u. but we've said wat we had to say at the airport so i hope u feel better=)

to I. , i've said wat i hav to say already tat night. i hope u feel better too. though u say u're fine, i can't help but think u're not 100% fine. so yeah. gd luck with ur studies too=]
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this week is packed. i dun hav enough time for anythin. yesterday i was juz so overwhelmed by everythin. so when manda and me were kinda argueing with my parents abt some sensitive stuff, i was like tearing and shaking, coz i was tryin so hard not to cry. i wanted to talk back but decided against it. so later when we talked to my mum again, i was keepin silent most of the time while manda and her talked/argued. coz when i talked, i started tearin even more. so i juz decided to shut up and try and calm myself. then my father came and talked to us, obviously i teared even more. they totally misunderstood us. they thought tat we 'hated' them or somethin coz of the issue we were talkin abt. but we didn't. maybe we sounded like we were angry with them but we truly weren't angry at them. it was probably due to the stress of everythin tat we sounded like tat. then i went to the toilet to bathe and i just broke down. wat was even more stupid was tat i had to like be silent and stuff so tat my parents wouldn't hear me cryin.
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today woke up still feeling down and was down in school too. but eventually the day got better. bugis-ed with ammy, fai, brenda and ernie. brenda was so hilarious man. and today's the first time i went bugis street! it was ok. but really wet. haha.
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i'm still brooding over the same problem again. everytime i want to talk to someone abt it, i eventually decide against it. y? maybe i'm too afraid to open up or maybe coz somethin always happens and it makes me unable to talk to someone or maybe coz i juz dun want to tell anyone. i really dunno. i've been dealing with this problem for ages and ages. at first i'll get so freakin emo abt it, then somethin'll happen tat cheers me up and gets my mind off of it. but then soon after, somethin else will happen and i'll be reminded of the problem all over again. the cycle juz keeps on repeatin.

2009-09-12T02:21:00.004+08:00

the holidays came
and they're gonna go very soon
the week's gone in a flash
and i hav NOTHIN to account for it...
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sighs.
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i haven't started on my hw or my FYE revision. JUZ started maths. i'm so fckin screwed up. it's like after the june holidays, i've been in a daze/trance/dream, tat sorta thing. i hav to really really buck up. i'm disappointin those tat care abt me, i'm really behind my classmates in my studies, i dun even remember anythin in the past 9 months, seriously. so wat do i hav to acccount for this life of mine? nothin. no accomplishments, while others r gettin scholarships and wat not. no awards, while others hav an artistic or sports background and r acheiving award after award. i'm the anythin but perfect, my character and personality really suck. i'm such a bum. i'm juz wastin my life away. and soon i'm gonna grow up working some low paying job or maybe i'll be jobless. then i'll die alone and unaccomplished and useless and as a person with uncountable empty and unfulfilled wishes/dreams. i really detest my lack of drive. i need a wake up call. and soon.
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some ppl do things their own way. they do wat they want to, how they want to and disregard absolutely anyone's opinion. it's so infuriatin. but who am i to judge right?
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today my mum attended a funeral. it was a colleague's husband's funeral. i pray with all my heart tat he's resting in peace in a better place and tat his loved ones will be well. he was in his mid 50s and has left behind a wife and two sons, one's arnd 2 or 3 yrs old and the other arnd 7 or 8 yrs old. both r so young, so pitiful. they were even playin at the funeral, my mum said they r too young, they dun understand. she said even if one of our parents were to pass on (touchwood), we would not be sobbing durin the whole funeral coz we dun fully understand wat it means to die. but i disagree. if tat were to happen, i'd be devastated and of course i'd understand wat it means to die.
To me death is like an eternal separation, i would nvr see the deceased person again, only in my memories. to be separated from my loved ones and to leave them behind forever would truly be a torture. but if we could meet in heaven, then tat would defintely be somethin anyone would dearly wish for. but no one can tell wat lies ahead , wat lies beyond this dimension, beyond this universe, beyond this life and beyond this world of ours. we can only believe and pray for the best.
Life is so fragile, so short and so very precious. anythin can happen at anytime. anythin can be lost forever at any moment. this colleague's husband was diagnosed with stomach cancer 3 months before his death, he was probably in one of the last stages. but the scary thing was tat, he had recently done a full body check up and he was in the clear. the cancer came so unexpectedly, so suddenly. with this event i realise and ponder on the value of life. but in a few weeks, i'll probably forget abt this incident along with watever reflections i had done. becuz tat's how humans are. they only think abt the present, they only grieve and reflect when the incident happens, but forget their resolve and pacts as the days go by. well, most humans are like tat, not all.
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gdbye.

2009-09-01T23:19:00.006+08:00

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAPPYTEACHERSDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TO ALL THE AWESOME PPL WHO TAUGHT US AND MADE US WHO WE R TODAY, THANK U, WE LUV U AND WE WISH U A HAPPYTEACHERSDAY!

the bad thing abt living in public estates is tat u can ALWAYS hear wat ur neighbours r talkin abt...
like right now.
my neighbour, a mother, is SHOUTIN at i think her son. the WHOLE time tat i hav lived in kembangan, frm like 4 or 5 yrs old till NOW, i always hear tat family arguin...last time was like everyday, then it grew lesser, but dunno y they hav recently started arguin more and more! urgh! sometimes it's really disturbin. the mum was like screamin at the top of her lungs, telling the son to get out of the house. and the son like shouted damn loudly back at her. wow. coz this is like one of the 1st few times i've heard him talk back to the mum. last time when the mum scolds the family and children, i nvr hear any talk back. but this time the son was like seriously shoutin...and the son's like i think 20? or younger or older. i dun really know. lol. anyway. then i went to the dinning room, where my dad is, and just looked at him...then he obviously knew wat i was thinkin abt then he tell me go and bathe and stuff. then i ask him y the mum always scoldin the kids then he said coz she stays at home so she's very stressed.....ok. and now my dad on the some music but i can still HEAR them shoutin. tat family must really hav issues man.
anyway.
sunday went to ikea with ammy, my mum and my lil bro. went to GIANT first to get groceries and then went ikea and ate MEATBALLS and CHICKEN WINGS! haha. yumyum! then we came home and our dad was kinda angry at us=( but now it's ok=)
yesterday was awesome! the school celebration was...sucky. haha. so sad lah! my class band was supposed to perform for teachers' day but we were taken out coz the string ensemble suddenly requested to perform..and the school cannot turn them down coz they're a cca grp so they hav priorities and they "represent a larger group of students" or tat's wat ms ng said. right. i mean i dun blame ms ng at all. but it's juz unfair. anyway. some performances were gd. especially ms ng's! our FM can bloody hell sing man! but we already knew it since she helped us with our music. her re-written songs really melted my heart! so touching and sweet. especially the line tat was somethin like if only they knew how much they mean to me. so sweet!!!!!! i was like cryin. and fuzz was so shocked. lol. so after tat, went back to pri school. were held back in TK coz of stupid phototakin... so in SACPS met up with christine and alicia! miss them like crazy. saw ms mong and my chi teacher. they're still the same=)
walkin arnd the school was juz so nostalgic. i was like in a daze the whole time. even though i couldn't clearly remember some places, it felt like i've been there b4. it was juz so surreal.
then lunched with ammy and chrissy and alicia at century sq. watched BANDSLAM after tat. total waste of time. well to me lah. there was no plot and a weak storyline. sigh. saw denise at tp mall and le xuan at century sq.! they actually said hi to us. coz usually outside school, schoolmates become like total strangers... they so friendly n nice=) then C and A had to leave=( so sad! seriously felt like cryin. then ammy and me headed to town.walked arnd and then met with tessa and vic coz they were in town too! dropped tessa off at the somerset mrt then the 3 of us walked all the way back to paragon to meet my mum. oh yeah! saw shu rei also. she say hi to us also. so friendly=) then vic left, she was already across the road and like at the other end of taka when her fren called my hp...coz vic got her phone confiscated. smart. so i had to wait for the traffic light to turn green and all i could do was watch helplessly as vic went further and further away. so i had to RUN across ngee ann city and chased after her. i was like so out of breath... then she kept apologizin and was so embarassed. haha so cute.
then met my mum and my dad picked us up and we picked my bro up THEN we went home.
today woke up super late. then went to the hair salon to trim our hair. ming is so nice and friendly=) oh yeah forgot to say, he's our hair stylist! haha and he's quite young. in his 20s? i think. haha i said to manda tat if he was younger i would definitely like him. hah. but it's true! he's very stylish. funny, friendly, sweet, 'easy-to-get-along-with' and likeable=) then took our IC photos(finally!) and met up with family at paragon's sushi tei. the food was quite gd and then we walked arnd a bit and went home.

i really miss my pri school!!!! so happy tat we could just pick up where we left of with our pri school frens=) not like ppl who dun keep in contact with their pri school frens...tat's actually very sad=(

we talked to tat person tat day for advice. tat person really explained to us wat and wat not to do and we talked abt some ppl and stuff. how they've changed and how they're different. then we juz talked crap. lol. but i still feel troubled. y r they like tat? y r they being influenced and thus changin? for the worst. i really wish they would go back to how they used to be. coz the ppl they r now is just a real...problem.

gdbye.

2009-08-23T18:20:00.004+08:00

today went for church in the morning.
church class was fun!!! haha. nvr c the ppl for quite a few weeks. then we split up into our service attachment grps to 'discuss' abt our service attachment so far, me, manda, dylan and michelle sat together since we were all catechists. louis was absent. then teacher rachel sat with us to make sure we were actually DICUSSIN. lolz. we did dicuss half the time. then the other half we were gossipin=P hehe. then had the charity event thing at ecp.
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omfg.
it was raining cats and dogs ok! we were like so drenched. when we reached ecp, it rained quite heavily, so me and manda went to macs to eat lunch. then it stopped raining so we headed back. talked to tiara for a bit and then it started to rain. AGAIN. and it was raining so damn heavily! even when we had our umbrellas, we were soaked from thigh downwards. so cold and wet. eww.
hah then manda go open her umbrella and it turned inside out coz the wind was so strong. went to stand at the stage with manda, tiara and her 2 frens. coz the stage was elevated, so we wouldn't be steppin on mud, and the shelter was bigger and there was this BIG board like thing at the back of the stage so we wouldn't be drinking the rain water. coz seriously, the rain was falling like almost horizontally. usually u hold ur umbrella ABOVE ur head, but this time we had to hold it INRONT of our faces. wth-_-"
then dylan and his cousin/'godbrother'/'brother' came. so funny lah. they were like in windbreakers and were cycling. dylan wore this red windbreaker and sunglasses. but though he was all covered up, i straight away knew it was dylan. haha probably coz he has the 'dylan aura'. then talked to them and D. went to ventilate. sighs. infront of my schoolmates some more.
wth seh. i mean i dun mind, wait. actually i do mind tat he ventilates coz it's bad for his health. STOPDOINGTHATDYLAN!!! but wat i mean is tat i hope my schoolmates, they were sec 2 by the way so they r younger than me, dun like get a bad impression of me or manda or dylan or his cousin bradley. they're really nice and cool ppl. haha i was telling manda tat i didn't expect them to actually hav tat kind of personality considerin their ______ and _____ and other stuff. lol. but once we got to know them, they're really nice.
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i really wonder who the hell they really r man. y r they so...arghh. so annoyin. i wish they would stop being so ... and ... and ... and all those other stuff. i hope wat we talked abt doesnt't happen. tat all our worries r for nothin coz you'll be alright. i wish u'll be u and no one else.
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today was fun and fun and fun. haha. now i hav a headache and i haven't started studyin for my damn EOYs and i haven't started on my freakin school projects/rehearsals/hw. damn it. screw all those f*ckin stuff lah.
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goodbye.

2009-08-20T21:52:00.003+08:00

last week was totally off the hook!!!

Thursday, 13/8/09: HAPPYBIRTHDAYTENGKUNUR-ALIMRANN!!! went ICC to celebrate with me, ammy, fuzz, anisa, hui nee, imran and his group of frens. didn't really yalk to his frens, but still talked and laughed a lot amongst ourselves. it's been almost 7 or 8 yrs tat we've known each other. tat's like so long. haha. and u hav changed QUITE a bit. well, thx for being such a great fren, for being such a hilarious person and for being a gd bf to my best fren=) haha. luv ya<3 (as a F-R-I-E-N-D. lol.)

Friday, 14/8/09: HAPPYBIRTHDAYEDMUNDGOH! such a cool, handsome cousin! haha. and one heck of a cook.
my cousin's 21st birthday. was good, but missed the drama floor anthem. sad. the dinner was nice! coz my cousin's a chef. well, almost lah. he's still internin at shangri la hotel! so cool! then his frens were there so it was a little...awkward. coz they all so much older than us. anyways, i still enjoyed myself=)

Saturday,15/8/09: watched "The Propasal" with ammy, my 2 bros and my cousin. it's a freakin awesome love comedy movie! so damn nice. at some parts i was almost gonna cry. Almost. which is quite a big thing since i dun cry for ANY show. not even if someone dies. well there are exceptions of course. then ate pepper lunch for dinner and after tat my bros went home while the gals went WINDOW SHOPPING! i've nvr really done tat but doin it with manda and my 22 yr old cousin is just super fun=) walked arnd orchard frm like, 7-11plus? haha. 7-11. so coincidental. anyways. walked till we dropeed and then took the LAST mrt train home. yes it was THAT LATE. but durin the week my parents were away, manda and me really bonded a lot with our cousin. so awesome!

Sunday, 16/8/09: went church and stuff. then went my cousin's house again for lunch. can't remember wat i did for the rest of the day. haha.

this week has been kinda packed. mostly goin out to eat lunch with frens. went to EATZ CULTURE on some days, then also went MAGIC WOK and other places. saw dylan a few times and we finally saw who SHE was. dunno y but they keep on starin at us a lot. so weird. maybe coz we got look at them also. lol wtv.

we've decided to audition for the teachers' day performance! haha. juz came up with a new song today. next week startin to practice. super rush lah. the audition's like either on wed, thurs or fri.

EOYs are comin! freakin scaresd lah! stupid shit. haha. they're like in a month's time? so fast. and before we know it, we'll be sittin for our 'O's. haiz.

to F and I, u guys are awesome and cute together so dun worry abt anythin and live for the moment. live for urself and each other! haha.
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ok
goodbye

2009-08-10T16:28:00.002+08:00

MY PARENTS HAVE JUST LEFT THE HOUSE TO GO TO THE AIRPORT.

but seriously, i'm mixed with emotions. i'm envious they get to go on a holiday, i'm sad tat they're goin away, i'm happy tat they're able to get away from here and spend some quality time together and i'm excited tat MY PARENTS are not in singapore. haha. FREEDOM! the last time they were both overseas coz of work, me and manda slept super duper late every night. like arnd 3-4am. haha then we go out a lot. lolz. i know, i'm very disobedient. so this time, i shall be more responsible and try to not go out too much. haiz. but i'm still so envious! they're goin to san francisco! *sighs*

2009-08-09T16:29:00.004+08:00

HAPPYNATIONALDAYEVERYONE!!!
yesterday went to ION to get a necklace from diva. then went to lido with my family to watch G.I.JOE. so cool! the show was nice, considerin it was an action film which is usually meant for guys. but there was love and stuff in it too! so it was nice=) haha. the cinema was like packed with teens and the cinema was the very BIG kind. actually the whole of lido was also packed. there were like 2 or 3 times more ppl than usual. the movie had very gd effects and there were explosions and loud sounds at almost every scene. ate dinner and then went to east coast beach for a while. walked and talked. it was so relaxing. there were many ppl campin there too.
today went to church then went to eat at a japanese restaurant at east coast. it was so stuffy inside even though they said the aircon was at it's coldest. so warm and uncomfortable. but at least the food wasn't too bad=]
my parents are goin to san francisco and hong kong tomorrow evening. they'll be comin back in like a week.
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it's so annoyin. i'm not talkin abt tat thing, it's abt another thing. it's so frustratin when u
-hav no control over ur emotions
-can't tell right from wrong
-can't ever do the right thing
-dun even know wat the right thing is
-can't express wat u really want to
-can't help but feel ??????? and ????? when u see those things happen
-can't help but feel helpless and ?????
...
goodbye

2009-08-07T23:46:00.003+08:00

WOOH!!! WE WON THE TKGS 'WE GOT TALENT' COMPETITION!
today was such a freakin memorable, fun, exciting, exhilarating, tense, anxious, nerve wrecking, cool, super, hyper and so on day! so happy we won=) yah!
so we were all like sweatin like shit in our ethnic costumes, then everythin was like rushed, all the preparations of the stage and hall and stuff. but in the end, our stayin back durin recess everyday was worth it. we had so much fun.
haiz. so sad it's over. oh and i remember my dear ammy went to go and sing my verse in our 2nd song, so tat part was a bit of a hassle for me, but we managed to continueour performance smoothly without ppl noticing our mistake.

THANK U 4E3 FOR UR HELP!
THANK U TO THE OTHER CONTESTANTS TAT CONGRATULATED US AND FOR BEING AWESOME COMPETITORS!
THANK U EVERYONE TAT VOTED FOR US AND SUPPORTED US!
AND A SUPER SUPER BIG THANK U TO MS NG! WHO HELPED US ALMOST EVERYDAY. FOR UR COACHING, ENCOURAGING AND gossiping. HAHA.

okay. time to move on to wat happened after school. (even though i really dun wanna stop talkin abt our school celebration today, but if i continue i'll feel more sad=[ )
so after tat went to siglap centre for macs. cabbed to orchard after tat. went to watch UP at lido. super funny! and got sad parts, me, ten and amira didn't cry but fuzz and ammy cried...then fuzz called me a heartless bitch-.-'LOL.
then went to wheelock to wlk around. fuzz shopped. then ten had to leave and so the 3of us went to ION. it was ok lah. super crowded. haha saw julia and yu an and later on saw cheryl from 3e2 there! so coincidental man. oh yeah saw charlene wee and jaslyn also. saw tat chinese girl actress from the 2nd season of R.E.M. with another chinese drama teen actress. saw patricia mok. yeah. so walk until got blisters all over and we shopped till we dropped. well, actually it was fuzz draggin us into every shop...then met my mum at forum and bought clothes.

on wed, went to bring my younger bro to doctor at orchard. then ate dinner at hard rock with my siblings. music was super loud and the place was FULL of caucasians. lol. anyway. ate a cheeseburger. nice but super filling.

i'm super tired now but i'm still gonna stay up! wooh! becuz the night is still young! haah.
goodbye.

PICS OF US BEFORE OUR PERFORMANCE

2009-08-02T23:31:00.003+08:00

hello
ok. basically i can't remember much of wat happened past few wks so i'll be real brief.
july 24th, fri: Went to Changi Airport with Ammy, Fai, Anisa, Emmanuelle, Amira and Jacelyn.
27th-30th july: CA week. major screw up.
erm, then i can't really remember the dates of the other stuff.

WE GOT IN FOR OUR SCHOOL'S NATIONAL DAY PERFORMANCE!

wooh! so excited=) rehearsed quite a few times and our new song's so nice. lol. on friday was changi airport with ammy, ten and nat. talked, ate popeyes, laughed and talked some more. nat had to go and soon after amira came by. ten tried in vain to teach us some thai words and manda made a fool outta herself. but the outing was awesome=] super major stress relief.
oh yeah.

HAPPYFIVEMONTHSTOFUZZANDIMMIE!!!

saturday met with them and F. and her R. at the playground. talked, crapped abt stuff and laughed a hell lot.then F and R had to go. then the 4 of us talked nonsense and laughed so much more. the day was super and i wish tat everyday it would be like tat.

i wish we could go back to the past. to relive it. to change it. to figure out wat happened tat made us wat we r today. to figure out how the present became like this. but like wat they say,
wat's past is past, now we live for the present and look forward to the future.

2009-07-22T21:28:00.003+08:00

CAs next wk
and i haven't studied
so tired and still hav headaches
barely passed my maths test
failed my 2 amaths tests miserably
fckin srcewed up my chem test today
coz i mistook the time as 9 to 9.30am
but it was actually 9 to 9.20am
so u can imagine how fckin shocked i was when she said pens down
and i was so damn pissed becuz i know how to do the paper
but i didn't hav enough time
and now i'm gonna fail coz i lost so many marks
srew that

tue was icc with ammy, fai, fuzz, immie and his fren matt
ate and talked and laughed quite a bit
especially when i asked imran abt his bike
me: eh. why ur bike's tires is different designs?
imran: coz one's for the dirt and one's for the road.
me: (pause)...but how r u suppose to ride the bike on the dirt with one wheel and how to ride the bike on the road with only one wheel?
(everyone starts laughing like shit. i'm not jokin. they were so loud.
matt: tat's a good question.

today was icc with hui nee, ammy and fuzz. saw dylan there too. then headed to HN's house to do project. her nephew's super cure lah! lol. then did some chi project thing and later on paige and amanda sng came over coz amanda and fuzz and ammy and me had to practice for the school's ndp audition thing. so yeah. got tons of work not done. and i ask myself wat i'm doin here, bloggin.

goodbye.

2009-07-15T17:14:00.004+08:00

pic of us before heading to icc
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pic of me at hui nee's house (my hair looks like crap -.-')
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ok so yesterday went to icc. to celebrate amanda sng's bday and supposed to meet them.
well, it was awkward at first. but after tat i think it was ok. though i didn't talk. so.
after tat went to hui nee's house=)
so fun. took pics and talked. her house is cosy;] then in the end left only me, fai, ammy, amira and hui nee coz the rest left.
watched titanic! at first i didn't want to watch coz it has a sad ending. but i dun regret watchin it!
then today we had a new ss teacher. he's cool and interestin. but the class is not gonna accept him just yet. hav to c wat's he's like. lolz.
juz dropped by hui nee's house again. went to c how she was doin. her wounds r still pretty bad. but they're getting better. went there with fai and ammy. oh but b4 tat we 3 went to eat at magic wok. and we talked and talked and laughed a lot. so relaxing after a whole day of 'studying', and after the amath lesson which i totally couldn't comprehend.
still hav lots of work and my headache is like 4 days old now. annoying.

2009-07-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

today has been an eventful one. but b4 tat, last night fuzzy conferenced call me, ammy, evelyn and yuuki. so fun! they r like super cool and friendly ppl;) so yeah really enjoyed talkin to them. today pe was first lesson. so i was running with hui nee then she suddenly tripped, fell and slid on the concrete floor=0 it was so bad ok. both her knees and left her arm was bleeding. then me, ammy, fai, fuzzy and amanda sng accompanied her to sick bay to dress her wounds. ammy dressed her wounds while me and amanda sng helped and i was sitttin beside hui nee holdin her hand coz the wounds were extremely painful. i hope u feel better now=) fuzz and fai were giving her 'emotional' support. lolz. then anyway, lit and geog was free period coz they teachers didn't come. wooh! and we discovered somethin 'interesting'. haha. then had our EL CA compo durin last period. it was quite gd. i wrote abt INNER BEAUTY. yeah. then after school ate at the prata shop outside our school with ammy, fuzz, fai and amira. talked, laughed, ate and stuff like tat. then fai left and we headed to tampines. i was totally AGAINST the idea coz i wanted to go home and study AMATH, which i still haven't studied and i'm so freakin screwed for tomorrow's AM common test. screw it man. then we saw nicole, abigal wee, samuel and one other girl from sacss. the girls were from my primary school, though i'm not particularly close to them. then samuel goes to the same church as nicole, abigal and i. and he's 'related' to them, i think. so after we left tampines, guess who we met at tampines mrt?! BIANCA! our primary school classmate=] she's still the same bianca we knew 3yrs ago. thank goodness. so talked with her for a while and then headed home. had a bad headache the whole day, tat's y i didn't want to go tampines, and now i hav to burn the midnight oil to revise amath. and i'm still havin a splittin headache.

2009-07-12T15:10:00.008+08:00

>PICS OF ME, AMMY, FUZZY, FAI, HUI NEE AND AMIRA AT PP<
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>PICS OF ME, AMMY, FUZZY, FAI AND IMMIE AT THE PARK CONNECTOR PLAYGROUND<
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>PICS OF ME AND MY COOL FRENZ<
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>PICS OF ME, FUZZY, AMMY AND IMMIE AT THE PLAYGROUND<
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2009-07-12T14:49:00.003+08:00

hello!
juz came back from church and lunch
had my first day of service attachment as a catechist
well technically i'm a catechist helper...
but anyways
a catechist is like a religious teacher
so i was posted to the primary 3 class
with michelle and dylan
while ammy and this other guy from our class got posted to P2
my class was ok
didn't really interact with them much
quite a noisy bunch
but i plan to talk to them next sunday=)
lol. so manda said her class was real 'cold'...
so yeah.
just now amanda ruined my whole day
she so stupidly go and spill the soya bean can drink all over my WHITE skirt,my EXPENSIVE SHOES and my legs!
and a bit on my shirt
WTH right
i was so damn pissed with her ok
luckily the stain on my skirt cannot really see
then my mum brought me another skirt to change into
ok then tat's about it
i shall post again soon
goodbye.

2009-07-10T23:28:00.006+08:00

been a week and a half since i posted. and i seriously cannot remember wat has happened durin tat time. ok shall try to recall.

1/7/09, Wednesday: can't remember wat happenede-.-'

2/7/09, Thursday: can't remember also...wth

3/7/09, Friday: i think i went out somewhere after school. but cannot remember...and then met fuzz and immie at the playground later on. talk abt some STUFF and took a few pics. then immie left and fuzz came over to our house to use comp and talk. then she left and tat was it.

4/7/09, Saturday: erm...didn't really do anythin.

5/7/09, Sunday: went to church, came home then met fuzz and immie at rahimah's. then amanda DRAGGED me to the airport at around 5pm+. walked around for like 3-4hrs, until 8pm+. tat amanda go and drag me to all the terminals-.-'first went to T3, then T1, then T2, then T3 and finally T2. wth... then my cousins came and soon after my bros and maid came. ate at swensens!!! for dessert had some giant earthquake i think. super a lot of icecream ok. like 8 scoops with different toppings. but then there where 7 of us so i guess it was ok. so unlucky sia cause i lost one of my freakin earring..i also dunno how the hell it came out of the stud. haiz. guess how much the whole dinner cost us? i think it was like 140DOLLARS!!! so f*ckin expensive. but it was super fun. walkin around at the airport with ammy is so relaxing and i just forgot all my problems=] oh yeah. saw dharmenhr with a HUMUNGOUS group of GIRLS at T3's viewing mall...

6/7/09, Monday: YOUTH DAY! wooh! so i slacked the whole long weekend and tried to rush my hw in the night. so last minute..in the end since i was tryin to finish my hw i DID NOT SLEEP AT ALL-_-'

7/7/09, Tuesday: super ultra tired and sleepy and lethargic. obviously. oh yeah. it was ten's and fuzz's first day of school this semester=) yah! they finally came back. so anyway. camwhored in class and it was so fun! then after school i had some retarded interact committee meetin while hui nee, fai, fuzz, ammy, amira and immie went to icc. i was so sad=((( but met with them later on. manda said she saw M. ,D. AND T. i was kinda affected by the news but i juz don't know y...so when i reached icc, amira and hui nee had left. the rest of us went to the playground at the park connector. camwhored again and stuff. then headed to the mrt. said bye to fuzz and fai and immie, manda and me wakled home. all i can say is today was awesome.

8/7/09, Wednesday: had english oral today. i thin it was ok but i don't feel very confident abt it. then went with fuzz to meet ammy, hui nee, amira and fai at pp coz they left first. went subway. camwhored AGAIN. took lots of pics but i dun hav them....then walked around and headed home. another awesome day=]

9/7/09, Thursday: went to pp AGAIN. SUBWAYed AGAIN. with tessa,vic,hui nee, ammy, fuzz and immie. vic left like very shortly after and nvr came nack-.-' so bored of subway. anyway. there was the whole drama of fuzzy's missing phone. super drama ok. in the end thank goodness someone found her phone. then walked around and headed home. took 32 with immie, fuzz, ammy and hui nee. HN alighted at st.pat's, the rest at kembangan mrt. haha took 2 pics of the couple tat looked sweet=) oh yeah. saw mardhiah's bro. then reached home at like 6pm+. fell asleep but i heard my dad askin manda if we wanted to go swimming at 8, manda asked and i was like "er..yeah, yeah wateva." so damn tired. so i slept till 8pm and they woke me up. so groggy with a headache and sore throat. went to SIA sports club at like 8.30pm. wth right. so swam 14 laps then went to the jacuzzi coz manda dragged me there. the sports club is like on a hill so the swimming pool is at the top and we could see the night sky=) so pretty. imagine, swimming under the stars. lol so retarded. anyway, the moon was like so huge and erm...yellow. it was a weird colour. anyway tried to study for the emath test and slept at 3am+.

10/7/09, Friday: had the EM test. i fund it do-able but then after tat i fouind out how to do a 4m question and now i think i'm gonna do badly coz i didn't do a few questions. wtv. then after school hung out at magic wok for a while then my dad picked us up and went to eat tembeling wanton mee. nice. haha. talked with my dad, when we talk we get a lot of knowledge coz my dad, even though he doesn't hav a good 'educational record', he's really really street smart and wise. i admire him a lot. wish i could be like him. anyway headed home and slept from like 4pm+ to 8.30pm+. when i woke up i was so shocked. cannot believe i slept for so long. showered, ate dinner, watched tv and now i'm on the comp. tomorrow my mum's comin back from her super long business trip=) goin to try and wake up at 6am+ coz my dad's piskin her up at 7am+ and we want to go with him.

ok tat's all.
goodbye.

2009-06-30T22:17:00.003+08:00

school has started
-
wat a bore
i'm so damn tired
still haven't adjusted my timing back yet
on sunday night i slept at like
4am plus...
but surprisingly
i woke up at 6.10am!!!
i think i was scared tat i would be late
so i heard my alarm then i quickly jumped out of bed
literally.
i woke manda up then she was like "it's only 6.10..."
then she go back to sleep...-_-"wth
then after i bathed, she was STILL SLEEPIN
i was so irritated
she almost made me late
but anyway
6.10am is super early on my watch
coz i always wake up at like 6.30am on school days lol
so happy tat for once i was on time on my first day of school
haha coz i was late the first day of school this year
but then last night i slept very late again
like 3am plus
so yesterday and today i was freakin tired
slept as much as i could durin class. haha
slept almost the whole of chinese too
there are 2 very lucky girls i know
they are FAUSTINA and TEN.
because they went to H1N1 affected countries
they got leave of absence
haiz.
so unfair
they go on holiday then they get EXTENDED holiday
so manda and me met with fuzz yesterday
haha lunched with her family and tania
i swear. her family is so fun! it's like they're very open with each other and stuff
but it was amusin when they talked in indonesian language and stuff
coz manda and me were the only 2 tat didn't understand
so tania was our personal translator
lolz
so we ate at this new chinese restaurant at pp's basement
the one very close to subway and mini toons
the food is super delicious!
must try it=)
then immie came when we were almost finishin lunch
so fuzz made us go and fetch him with her-.-'
but he didn't come into the restaurant
so he waited somewhere while we finished up our food
then fuzz's family left to do their own stuff
and me, manda, fuzz, immie and tania went to subway and get hair accessories
tania left early
laughed a hell lot at subway
when the four of us r together
it becomes catastrophic...
then met with fuzz's family and said goodbye
oh and fuzz's father gave immie this very firm and hard handshake
haha it's like so funny
cause manda and me were like sayin he was seein if immie was gd for fuzz or not
or somethin like tat
so then cabbed back to kembangan with manda and immie
and tat was our first day of school
pretty sweet huh.
then today met fuzz AGAIN. with manda and amira
met at taka.
wth right. so super far from school
but we had a lot of fun=)
she was with her family again
then she left with us to eat lunch
couldn't decide wat to eat
took a million years to choose macs over kfc
haha tat's the problem when they're opposite each other
oh yeah
on the train to orchard
we saw victoria! from 3e4.
so coincidental tat she was in the same train, in the same carriage at the same time
wat r the odds?
so after we ate, walked around
and then fuzz had to go to paragon
visited my mum's shop on the top floor
though my mum wasn't there coz she's on her business trip
miss her=(
then had to go home coz it was late
but b4 tat we accompanied fuzz to starbucks
and manda and fuzz made a fool of themselves
but they didn't realize, so i had to inform them
as usual.
so we met fuzz's family at the entrance
then said bye and left
the 3 of us cabbed back to kembangan
and so now i'm totally broke
so freakin expensive lah
stupid taxi!
but no choice coz had to rush home
coz my dad was angry tat we took so long to come back
anywayz.
not i gtg do my work, which if i might add
is my holiday hw
and so now i've got tons of UNFINSHED and UNTOUCHED work to do
*sighs*
goodbye.

2009-06-23T04:07:00.004+08:00

i'm glad i hav a blog
because i can share the things on my blog
which i juz can't tell anyone else
-
i'm crying now
but the worst thing is that
i'm crying so much more inside
my heart feels so twisted
i can't even breathe properly
i feel like i'm gonna throw up
i'm so confused and feel so betrayed
i'm alone now in this room
while everyone has their peace in their own sweet dreams
only i.
i can't sleep
i can't even think abt anythin
i'm juz sittin here and sharing abt my feelings
nobody will know wat i'm actually talkin abt
i don't want them to know
but yet i wish so much for someone i can talk to
to talk abt this
the secret
the betrayal
my emotions
my torn and hurt soul
i feel so disgusted with myself
with my actions
with my behaviour
wat am i to do
whom can i turn to
i've had this kind of feeling a lot this year
actually i've experienced it my whole life
but this year it's so much more severe
this pain is staring at me right in the face now
and i'm facing it alone
today is by far the worst i've felt
my eyes are dry now
for i hav no more tears to shed
i've cried so many times
and pulled through this kind crisis alone so many times
but i don't know
if i'll be able to make it this time
ppl may think it's coz i'm a teen
all teens go through this period of time
when they think that they're at the worst point of their lives
i used to think that way
i was disgusted by the way ppl would say their lives are so much worse off than others
that dying was the best solution to their problem
but now i am the same
i'm so digusted with myself
i'm not sayin that this is the worst point in my life
but it will defintely be one of the worst
i...
i don't know why this is happening
i'm not hurting because of normal issues
not because of friends, family or even love
but because of everything
it may not make sense to ppl
but all of these things
all of my problems are connected
my friends, family, love and even my life
they're all linked by something or someone
and that's why i can't concentrate on anythin
because when i do
i will somehow think abt the problem
then i'm just lead back to the core
the most painful thing in my heart which connects everything
the thing that i just never ever want to face
i can face anything in the world
except this.
i can't come to terms with it
i can't accept it
i should hav listened to the ppl around me
and stopped this problem before it got out of hand
and they were right
it is out of control
i've gone so deep into this
both my mind and my soul
that i'm afraid that i'll never be able to let go
nvr be able to solve this problem
to finally end it
so that i can rest at last
but i don't know when i'll ever be able to get away from it
or rather
if i'll ever be able to.
because i'm not a regular teen
i'm slightly different from others
not in the sense that i take drugs
or do some illegal job
haha. i'd rather die than do anything immoral
it's nothing like that
come to think of it
this difference between me and other ppl
is actually very obvious
but ppl just pass it by
they may notice it
but they nvr ever think abt it
they nvr think that maybe that's partly the reason
for my core problem
the reason why i'm sufferin like this
nobody ever saw it
and nobody ever will
-
what would u do
if u discovered a secret
that hurt u so deeply
you could just die.
that made u feel so betrayed
that made u feel so useless
that made u feel so unwanted
that made u feel so untrustworthy
that made u feel so insignificant
that made u feel so hurt
that made u think abt all ur other problems
because they all related to this secret
this secret would be the thing that ignited the grave sorrow u would feel.
when all ur fears and worries were buried deep in ur heart
and u nvr intended to look at them again
this secret u discovered
just woke all ur fears up
and now u hav to face them all over again
and you keep reproaching urself
you keep scolding urself for how weak u are
so weak that u can't even handle this problem
u keep thinking abt it constantly
hurting urself every single day
and there's no escaping
because this secret is engraved in ur heart
u'll always be aware of it
even if u try to forget
and this secret
will lead to another secret
and another
and yet another
it never stops
then u feel more suffocated than ever
u can't handle it anymore
and the worst thing is that
no one's with u
u're all alone
no one to share ur pain
no one to comfort u
just yourself.

what will u do?
-

2009-06-21T20:17:00.003+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL FATHERS OUT THERE!!!!
and
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO JOASH JONATHAN GOH YI LIANG!
my one and only older brother<3 luv ya.
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ok
haven't posted in a while
a very long while
so i can't really remember wat's happened
losing track of time and my memory is screwed up
i've watched monsters.vs.aliens and GHOSTSOFGIRLFRIENDSPAST
THE 1ST MOVIE WAS RETARDED
THE 2ND MOVIE WAS NICE=) watched it juz now at lido in orchard
then ate at a chinese retaurant with family, excludin my dad cos he's on flight
so weird since it's father's day but my father's missin...
then walked around
then ate ice cream
and went home
so here i am
hav not started on any freakin hw or project or revision
so screwed
only one wk left till my doom
but at least i'll get to c my frens=]
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i hav no idea but i've been daydreamin so much recently
thinkin and thinkin
wonderin abt stuff
tryin to answer my never-ending list of questions
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so tired.
so irritated.
so lost.
-
goodnight.

2009-06-10T14:38:00.005+08:00

hello.
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juz came back from city hall. coz today had the interact day organised by Anderson JC. they're school was ok. the talk by this lady called Ms Elim Chew, the founder of 77th Street, was quite interesting. i think she has a very charismatic personality and is very funny. anywayz. so after tat went to city hall to walk around. at first only manda and me were there. but then we bumped into anne marie, ardilla, kim lee and seok yern juz after we got out of the train. cool!=) so then we juz walked around, and we were lookin for this shop called 'party city'. or somethin like tat. it sold all the stuff u would need for parties. well, mostly kiddy stuff. but then the funniest thing happened. so anne marie bought this round red candy tat looked like gum to me. then she ate it. and after a few seconds she said the sweet was not nice, then she said it was very hot, and i believe her. coz when she walked past me, i could smell the "spicyness". it was horrible. then she ran to the dustbin and spat it out. but it hit the metal sides of the dustbin and it made such a loud noise. i think the sweet was really hard. she was wonderin why the sweet was like so horrible. then we told her to check the wrapper coz maybe there was some kind of name for the sweet. guess wat it said? FIREBALL. wahahahahah!!!!! we were all laughin like crap. then she said tat she didn't even read the wrapper. lol. so yeah. it's the best gift to give an enemy or juz to play a prank on someone.

on monday night, manda, my younger bro and i went to walk with my cousin and her dog to cheers at the mrt. it was like 10+pm. after tat, i didn't want to go home so we stopped by at the basketball court. i was holdin the dog and the minute we walked to the middle of the court, the lights switched off-_-'lol. then manda was like sayin i so unlucky and stuff, tat's why it went off. then i turned to the dog and asked wat he did. haah. retarded. anywayz. i think it was juz coz it was very late. i persuaded them to come sit down and so we sat. right in the middle of the bb court. beside it were the big open field, the kembangan cc, the jogging track and finally the road. it was so nice. coz it was dark and it soon became breezy. and we juz did some cloud gazing. haha. coz there weren't many stars. we saw clouds tat looked like dragons, a bird, a scary face, an old man with a large beard laughing, a rabbit, some creature with wings. and erm. can't remember already. too many things. my younger bro said i 'saw' the most number of things coz i hav the most imagination. haha. maybe. but also probably coz i do it often. i juz stare at the clouds and picture stuff. so yeah....very fun and super relaxing.
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ok
gtg
bathe
now
goodbye.

2009-06-08T19:23:00.004+08:00

ok
been a while since my last post
i hav no idea why. but i can't really remember the things tat happened recently
so, to sum everything up the past few weeks:
-watched NightAtTheMuseum2 with ammy and fuzzy. we snuck in macs. and manda and me carelessly dropped 2 packets of fries. retarded i know.
-ten left for thailand. fuzzy left for bali. IMISSTHEMSOFREAKINMUCH! we also went out with immie and fuzz a couple of times=)
-went out with the clique.
-erm...did super badly for MYEs.
-had TPC. really bad. criticism most of the them. haiz.
-went SIA sports club a few times. still aching like crap from yesterday. played badminton and swam quite a bit. then ate at the ASTON'S retaurant there=] and played pool! wooh!
-now matt's playground frens r in the house and want 2 use the comp.
so
goodbye.

2009-05-22T20:43:00.003+08:00

it's been awhile since i posted abt my life. ok let's c. lately i can't remember anythin tat i did the previous day coz i've been so freakin tired and sleepy. but i know tat i've beengoing to the playground often. meetin fuzz and imran sometimes. mostly imran everyday. i think...anyway. today was TKGS INTERACT CLUB INSTALLATION! it's like a formal event where we host interactors from other schools, rotarians(the ppl in charge of interact clubs in singapore), the principal and the vice-principals. the event is about 'installing' or rather welcoming the new interact club committee and the passing over of positions from the outgoing committee to the incoming committee. and so there were a few speeches-_-' so sian i tell u. so boring lah. but luckily there was an informal part! wooh! and we put up performances! the sec 1 interactors did a dance, sec 2s did a song, 3/4 of sec 3s did some korean dance thing=.= they're like hard core korean fans...right..but me, kimbo and ammy did a hip hop dance! and it rocked! haaha. but seriously, i think our dance was nice. got a LOT of energy cause got pumping, a little of krumping and popping. so yeah. NICE=) then i borrowed imran's hoodie! it was like so comfortable. very nice. some more it's blue colour!!! i like=>so i'm considerin whether to buy one for myself. so yeah. my father's on flight now, coz he works in SIA, and my mum's on a business trip . so we hav FREEDOM the whole weekend! yah!!!!!! hah. let's go crazy. juz came back a while ago. so tired. and there's still the stupid eng project. oh right! i forgot. i got back some MYE papers. i had an A1 for eng!!!!! yah! then a C6 for chinese. at least i passed. and 41/100 for amath. retarded. stupid. i mean the paper. haha. like so many ppl failed. teacher go set so hard for wat. haiz. ok i shall try to post more often.

goodbyes

2009-05-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

omg
i feel very weird now
and i hav no idea why
and i don't like this 'empty' feeling
haiz.....
wish i knew wat was causin this
then i can solve this problem
and get back to normal
and ACT normal
and FEEL normal
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bye.

2009-05-16T00:41:00.006+08:00

stupid elearnin

failed my math online test
even though it's not counted it still sux

didn't do my amath test coz it wasn't there
so i didn't even get to open the damn test
but i can't blame anyone but myself can i
f*ck all of this
it has a percentage of my next term's CA marks too
great.
essential marks lost
for nothin
i feel so
ugh..

wtv
today kimbo came over for dance practice
at least there was some joy in my day
had fun crappin around with her and ammy
haha so funny lah
but coz of the amath test
my mood's like shit
feel like cryin
as if i would
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-
goodbye

2009-05-13T23:19:00.005+08:00

-
♥♥♥

A blind girl hated herself because she was blind.

She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
He was always there for her.

She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I would marry
you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When

the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her
boyfriend.

He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'

The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind..

The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her.

She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her
life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying:
'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, before they were yours, they were
mine. '

This is how the human brain often works when our 'status changes'.

Only a very few remember what life was like before and who was always by
their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a Gift

Today before you say an unkind word -Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who
has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's
crying out for a companion.

Today before you complain about life -
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you argue about your dirty house that someone didn't clean or
sweep -Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive - Think of someone who must
walk the same distance.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the
unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

Before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember
that not one of us is without error.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your
face and thank God you're alive and still around.

NOW, THAT YOU'VE READ THIS, SEND IT TO THE PEOPLE YOU CARE
ABOUT & LOVE!!!

♥♥♥

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.'

omg. after reading this forwaded email from my dad, i was like so sad=( tat gal is so stupid lah. really touching and meaningful email so i decided to post it up. to let ppl c the true meaning of life. to tell them tat instead of thinking tat their lives are the worst on earth, know and understand tat their lives are just beginning.

2009-05-08T20:10:00.004+08:00

hello

i'm so damn tired lah. been "mugging" these few days for the exams. haha. or at least i was TRYING! on wed had a math and bio. omg i like didn't sleep on tue night can. but maybe i did... for less than half an hour! so f*ckin tired. dragged my sorry ass to school and failed my a math. congratz samantha. then bio was i dunno. better? but still bad. lol. then on wed had chem and geog. again sleep for such a short time. i took a nap for abt 2hrs on tue evening, after comin back from icc(haha. i'm SO irresponsible. i told i was TRYIN to study. but in the end didn't really), then after my nap i was so tired i couldn't concentrate. so i tried studyin at 10pm. was just so groggy and drowsy...couldn't study. started readin chem at 11+. was smsin vic. haha. the last 2 nights i've been smsin her cause she also stay up late. then kept on falling alseep so couldn't absorb anythin. started on geog at 4am. couldn't study so i was scared as hell for it. i totally knew NOTHIN ok..so i like didn't do 20+ marks out of 50+ marks-.-' so dead. but a math was still worse. imagine tat. chem was like same as bio...luckily today was lit and only had to come to school at 11am! wooh! but i actually also nvr study..i only read...erm let's c. chp 1,2 and 11=)wth. luckily the questions were stuff tat i kinda knew a bit. but still didn't finish the paper. wat's new?

ookies. now for the parts in the wk when i had a life=)

i dun think i did anythin on mon. tue went icc with ammy, fuzzy and immie. so damn fun!!!!!!!! laughed a hell lot until i cried. shouted until i think my voice-box spoil. had so much fun i think my brain juz went crazy. lol. immie SO entertainin can. cracked so much jokes and did retardedly funny stuff. we juz like laughed at stupid things lah. then wed went to orchard to change manda's wound dressing. i swear i'm so tired of goin to orchard. i think we went there 3 times the past 2 wks. then manda and me keep checkin out the same guys. roflm. it's like both of us will c this guy, then i will already be lookin at manda cause i know she's gonna turn around and look at me, so she'll turn and say "hey sammy!" or "hey! hey!" then i'll be like noddin my head and givin her tat look and sayin "yes amanda. i know." then she'll start giggling and we'll laugh. so retarded. i think she's like my "drug". not in tat couple kinda way when a gf and bf are each others' drugs-.-' like she can get me so hyper then sometimes she can kill me...anywayz. it was fun=] and i luv her more than myself!!! haah. then today went to airport T3 with ammy and fai. but b4 tat went pp with them+amira, ten and fuzzy for dunno wat...-_-"' saw so damn many TKGians there. saw vic they all then some other random ppl and cliques...pp was so green ok. then took 32 to kembangan mrt. met immie then i had very very bad stomach ache which i still hav now. i think it was coz of the 3 subway cookies. mainly the 2 white macademia chocalate chip cookies. it tasted weird and "unbaked". felt like pukin after tat and throughout the lit exam. so at the mrt went toilet. then come out, talk with the awesome ppl there. then i was like so weak. so tired and coz of my tummy ache. so. amira was supposed to come with us but then her blisters on her feet were very painful s she couldn't. hope u're ok now=) immie and fuzz went off. so me, ammy and fai went to T3! so fun. ate at popeye's. food was ok lah coz my stomach wasn't feelin too gd. then talked alot. fai is very nice and fun!!! luv her<3 =) talk and talk. laugh and laugh. walk around and sat at the viewing mall. i wonder why it's called the VIEWING MALL. i was sayin "why's it called a mall? they shop for planes there ah?" correct wat right? malls are to buy stuff. but i obviously said it sarcastically. not because i'm stupid. cause i'm NOT. yeah. then went to the playground juz now. then play and talk with the small kids. ny the way, i go there to take care of my younger bro. it's not coz i'm immature. then anyway. they bully us=( keep throwing bomb bags at us. then chase us all around. mainly me coz they say dun disturb manda coz she injured...then yeah. and they're p4 and younger. wth. but yeah. they are fun. when i was p3 to p5 like tat, we always play with them=) haha. ok so MAYBE i am immature. but i like to play! haahs. was missing the past when we could play so carefree-like. haiz. then met one of the kids' mother whom we know and talk to. she's a pre-school teacher. then like nvr talk for so long. haha. so we caught up with each other and she told us abt her other son, dharmenhr, and other stuff. haiz. it's so nice to relieve the past. last time in pri school we would go to the playground and meet imran and dharmenhr and talk from like 6-8pm. then talk to the maids and some parents. miss those times so damn much=( i so wanna cry. but the present's awesome too. but...i juz really really miss the past.

so my next and last exam paper is on tue. e math. gonna fail. but i hav no school next wk except tue! wooh! so happy. finally can sleep man. ok.

goodbye.

sad day

2009-05-03T16:16:00.004+08:00

first and foremost, my mum's boss' mother-in-law just passed away due to cancer and i would like to dedicate this post to offer my deepest condolences to the family. the lady that passed away was also jian an's(a childhood fren of mine and amanda) grandmother. it's so sad. just in a flash a life could be lost. so i would like anyone that reads this post to pls pray that her soul will rest in peace and that god will take her to heaven. thank you.
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omg! my exams start on wednesday and i haven't even studied...gosh. so gonna fail. oh yeah, juz now in the car, my mum, manda and me saw this aneroxic lady! omg she was so skinny! as in seriously, we could only see bones and skin! so scary ok. she is the first serious case of aneroxia i've seen in my life...

i shall try to go and study now.

bye

2009-04-30T21:31:00.004+08:00

omg
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i'm posting twice in a day
i'm either very
1) bored
2) free
3) troubled

i'll say all 3

haiz...i'm so confused. wat am i supposed to do? do i be angry? sad? understanding? or just treat it tat nothin happened. *sighs*
maybe i should go pluck flower petals to help me decide. lol

anywayz. after school had dance practice for somethin with manda, kimbo and siti. then manda had to leave to meet fuzzy for something 'secret'...watever. then ate lunch with kimbo at magic wok. haha. kimbo is one crazy girl. met immie there cause manda and fuzz told immie to 'watch' me and 'take care of me' -_-'right.....but thx anywayz! it was fun talkin to u=)so sweet to keep me company when u were already so tired. thank you<3 then waited for manda. there was a lot of hassle. fuzzy and manda kept on changing their minds and i had to travel from place to place. was tired and sweaty like shit cause my bag weighed a ton and the weather was sucky.
MYE are comin. i haven't studied. never even touched a single book. i'm screwed. so yeah.
i'm lazy to post anythin else
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Goodbye

hurt

2009-04-30T14:32:00.004+08:00

sometimes i feel like i'm redundant
sometimes i feel like you're enough in this world
sometimes i feel like without me, everything will still be normal

i dun even want to know the 'secret' anymore. truthfully speaking, in the beginning, i was juz curious but now i'm not. i've found out what i actaully wanted to know. i know now what i need to know.

and
the
truth
really
sucks

trouble trouble trouble

2009-04-29T20:05:00.002+08:00

helloz

*sigh* so many things hav been happening lately. ok first of.

MONDAY: went with manda to the doctor to cut off the part of her in-grown nail. she had 3 injections on her TOE. she was like crying cause it was very painful. and i was so sad seeing her cry and i couldn't do anything. haiz. then they went on to cuttin the nail. it wasn't pain cause her whole toe was numb. so there was scissors, blood and a big piece of nail. go fix the pieces together=)haha. then manda made a last minute decision. the very bad in-grown nail was on the left side of her left foot's big toe. but then tat nail's right side had a small in-grown nail so she was afraid tat she would hav to do this process all over again. so she decided to cut it off too. so they gave her aother jab but it wasn't so painful this time. but when they injected, the left side, tat was already cut, was like bleeding. a lot. i didn't let manda see cause i thought she would faint. my mum didn't want to see either. but i was like staring at her foot the whole time...hehe. interesting wat. anyway so they cut it off and now her nail only has the middle section left, which is only 1/3 of her actual nail size. kinda gross. TUESDAY: went to icc with ammy, fuzzy, fai and vic. talked a damn lot.. had SUCH AN AWESOME TIME!!! haha. and was 'enlightened' by our conversation. then rachel and paige came later. talk some more. then went home. TODAY: went to the doctor again to change the dressing of manda's wound. my mum didn't follow this time. so only me and manda. when they took out the dressin the nail looked gross. had a lot of blood on the bandage and pus and a bit of blood on her toe. i could see her fleshX0 anyways. then met fuzzy and immie at the playground juz now. talked. laughed. had fun. yeah.

srry for being kinda dead and stuff today. some of u saw. thankfully not many. i'm fine amira, i'm not sick or anythin but thx for ur concern. and dun worry fuzz, i'm not sad.-_-' juz need time out sometimes. then at tat time i'll be like in my own world, staring into space, looking but not seeing anythin and so on. haha. i juz need to..'sort' some things out. haiz. haha i'm soundin so emo. (but i'm NOT)

life is like a test
many obstacles will you face
but when you overcome them
then will you find your rightful place

---peace out---

another celebration

2009-04-24T23:13:00.003+08:00

woots! today was aewsome! went out with ammy, fuzzy, immie, and amira. went to plaza sing. to watch fast and furious 4. quite nice. i luv to watch them race! so damn cool!! and their rides are so rad also!!! wish i could drive like tat...anywayz. before tat ate at swensens. thank god we had to rush for the movie after tat. cause i'm not sure if amira, fuzzy and immie were planing to buy a cake. and i was afraid they would smash us with cake. lucky nvr, if not then...well let's just not go there. heh. lol. i got this thing below from my fren's blog. did it for fun coz now i'm so bored and alone...

A : You like to drink.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : One in a million.
E : Unbelievably great in bed.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You are Quirky.
I : Great In Bed.
J : People Adore you
K : You're wild and crazy.
L : Unbelievably great in bed.
M : Best kisser ever.
N : You like to drink.
O : Awesome kisser.
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R: Unbelievably great in bed.
S : Easy to fall in love with.
T : You're loyal to those you love.
U : You really like to chill.
V : You are not judgemental.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You never let people tell you what to do.
Y : Best boy/girlfriend any one can ask for.
Z : You really like to chill.

S: Easy to fall in love with. (haha. i hope so.)

A: You like to drink. (absolutely!)

M: Best kisser ever. (erm....-_-')

A: You like to drink. (absolutely!!)

N: You like to drink. (ABSOLUTELY!!!)

T: You're loyal to those you love. (i'll swear on that)

H: You are Quirky. (i suppose.)

A: You like to drink. (omg! enough of this question already...)

G: You never let people tell you what to do. (positive.)

O: Awesome kisser. (ERM.....-_-')

H: You are Quirky. (i suppose.)

my bday!

2009-04-23T22:55:00.004+08:00

HaPpY BdAy AmMy!!! haha. i was the first to wish her last night. my dad was the first to wish me. and manda only wished me when i told her to. wat a sad life i hav. i need to ask my twin to wish me then she will. i was so very sad. haiz. but 2day rocked like hell lah!

THANK YOU PPL FOR YA WISHES, PREZZIES, HUGS AND FOR SINGING US BDAY SONG! SO SWEET. 3E2 IS THE LUV<3

anywayz, went to kallang leisure park with ammy, fuzz, immie, duan yi, esther, ernie & brenda. sooo damn awesome!!! ate kfc then went bowling! nvr bowl for like ages...only me, ammy, fuzz and immie played. and i got 3rd place... immie got first, obviously, then ammy then me then fuzzy. don't play play ok. behind manda's innocent exterior actually lies a pro. haha. then at night, went to eat at a restaurant called "the ship". the food not bad but i've eaten there a few times. it sells like steak and stuff and oysters and so on. i'm so stuffed. tomorrow going out again!!! with our clique. cannot wait!

my prettey bday cake

me and my beloved ammy<3

fun!

2009-04-19T17:24:00.002+08:00

haha. just now i was upstairs in my room with manda. then when i wanted to leave manda keep on sayin "sammy.sammy.sammy." over and over again like a baby. then when i went out of the room i didn't want to close the door then manda was like "close it or i'll step on your bed." then i was like "step lor. then i'll throw ur bag out the window." lolz. very retarded but it's coz lame and retarded jokes and things that happen between us makes us laugh like shit. anwayz. on friday went out to tampines with ammy, ten, fuzzy, amira, victoria and met esther there. we walked around the new shopping mall 'tampines one'. i think it's more for shoppers coz there are just so many clothes shop. then went tampines mall for lunch. ate at macs. saw yin hui and her fren there. then we dirtied fuzzy with cake. ppl were like starin but who cares. coz we don't. then esther they all go and hide fuzzy's special jacket. but i wasn't a part of it. i just didn't tell her where it was. they were like passing it to each other bags secretly. then fuzzy keep on suspecting ten had it and checked her bag dunno how many times. she checked mine the first. she so suddenly open my bag. so scary. dun mess arnd with fuzzy's important itmes. hahaha. then when we went home, me, manda, my younger bro, tanya, fuzzy, her sis and cousin went to the playground near my house. so fun. me and manda were like playin with the younger kids that we never talked to in ages. so fun. i haven't stepped on that playground for like 3yrs. sad. then met petrina there. my primary school fren who stays near me. so fated lah. then tanya, fuzzy's sis and cousin had to go. then imran came later on. so the four of us, me, ammy, fuzz and immie sat on the playground and talked and talked. so damn fun. like the old times when me, manda, imran and another neighbourhood fren sat at the exact same place and talked for hrs. but tat was like in pri 5 and 6. i miss those times so badly. then the next day went out to tampines again to celebrate fuzzy's bday wih her other feens and imran. it was reeaallyy fun. there was me, ammy, fuzz, imran, novia, syuhaidah, hengky, france, try and anthony. the guys left afer eatin lunch at pizza hut(fuzz's treat!) so the GALS went out to play. mainly fuzz and novia went to shop. manda and me went to diva to get something for fuzz. then we saw this couples' necklace. one was a key and the other was a heart that said something like " he who holds the key, can unlock my heart." then the key can fit into the heart but it's not magnetic or anythin so it doesn't stay. novia had to go and tanya came later on and the 6 of us went to watch 17 AGAIN!!! so damn nice! especially the part where zac efron was reading something to has almost divorced wife in the court. he was pretending to read from a piece of paper but me and syuhaidah knew it was empty. but tat part was so sweet. and fuzzy! juz becuz i dun cry doesn't mean i'm insensitive.hahaha take tat poem i gave u for exampe. u said u wanted to cry so i can write sensitive things. but still. fuzzy's a broken tap. one drop leaks and she's spraying water like a hose from a fire hydrant. haha. manda's not so bad. she leaks like a broken pipe. lolz. then met imran and walked around. he and fuzzy are sooooooo sweet together. they make a gd couple to coz they both shop. hah. anywayz, yesterday was juz the awesomest day ever. and we really needed it coz school juz sux. the lessons. not the ppl. duan yi is so sweet i tell u. she so nice draw my name for me. it might be lame to some ppl but not to me. it's so sweet of her. i wish i can go out more often! haiz. omg i hav to go study and do hw still! peace out.

another day

2009-04-16T22:52:00.003+08:00

i'm getting lazy to blog abt stuff...anywayz. fuzzy's bday is in like 1hr!!! HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 HAPPY B'DAY FUZZY<3 haha. she's totally the awesomest drama princess EVER! so sad couldn't watch their syf today. sigh. and she said it was off the hook. and i haven't even studied for my lit test tomorrow. i'm totally lost in all my subjects coz i'm always either sleeping, playing or talking. haha. i'm so screwed for MYE. so the past wk has been so-so. but i really want ppl to stop being hypocritical. i luv the ppl, but not their attitudes. sighs. wat a dilema. today was a blast. went to icc then to some siglap park with ammy and fuzzy. sat at the playground for like an hour or less or more. i dunno coz i wasn't keeping track of the time. it's when i'm with them and wen we're juz talkin tat i feel so destressed. like there wasn't a care in the world. oh yeah. then there were a lot of kids playing there. toddlers actually. and how we all wished we could turn back the clock to the fun and stress-free lives. haiz. but then there were these 2 chi toddlers. i think they were twin girls. SO CUTE!!! haha. and they kept on looking at us and came and 'disturb' us. then one of them keep on purposely 'dropping' her cap coz she wanted me to pick it up i think. later i found out it was actually her twin's cap. ahahahha. i guess she thought i was playing with her. well i'll count it as half playing coz i was talking to fuzzy and ammy at the same time. the twins r so cute. they kept on laughing when we look at them. i wish i could play all my life. yeah right, like tat's ever gonna happen.

2009-04-09T18:54:00.002+08:00

hahaahahah. oh man. when i read this on fuzzy's blog i was like "......." it was so retarded. but on fuzzy's account, i'll do it. i hope you're happy fuzz. hahaha juz kiddin. you're still loved<3 anywayz. it goes like this.

Dear Beth,
I don't really know how to tell you this, I'm in love with your cat. I think I realized it when I tripped on peanut butter with George Bush and Stephen Harper and I saw you carve your initials into the Catholic Priest. I'm sure you're shamed enough to understand that your driving sucks. I'm returning your Hannah Montana underwear to you, but I'll keep your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard. and I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon.
Greetings to your frog Leonard
Samantha

Here's how you do it:

Dear (the last person you texted),
I don't really know how to tell you this,(1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7).I'm returning your (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory.You should also know that I (10) and (11).
(12),
(Your Name)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Others- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – My ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other -The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Bitchy
Others -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself.

BOOKINGS?!?!?!

2009-04-03T13:25:00.003+08:00

omg...is all that can describe wat juz happened. it's the last period of the day. geography. teacher's real nice and funny=)sometimes. and she always makes sound effects when she talks. hahahaaz. then juz now, class was going to finish soon. she came to my table and asked, "samantha. what is your nametag doing with faustina?" i was like......shocked. how was i supposed to know that she would be so sharp as to notice it. cause fuzzy lost her nametag so i lent her my extra one. it's been fine for the whole wk. but of course somethin HAD to happen today. so i told her fuzz lost hers and she was like "still, you're not helping her. you're getting yourself and her into more trouble." (but throughout this unfair 'ordeal', she was talking to me very nicely. so tat accounts for some of the damage i suppose. haha) then fuzzy got, not 1, but 2 bookings. AND, this is the best part, me too! wth?! i was like dumbfounded. shocked. lost for words. it was as if she just suddenly dropped a bomb on me without my knowing. wat kind of logic is tat? i get booked TWICE for 'helping' a fren. i mean cut me some slack man. it's JUST a nametag. not like we switched identities. haiz. and my day was going so well...well, most of it.

April Fool's!!!

2009-04-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

HaPpY ApRiL FoOl's DaY!!!!! oh man today was fun. especially durin interact session when kimbo and siti kept on 'prankin' us. wahaahahahhahaahahahaha+_+

nothing much

2009-03-31T20:36:00.003+08:00

helloz! so it's been a while since school started and let's see what i've learnt so far............................-.-'nothin. well waddya expect? i dun even study or pay attention in class. haiz. well we changed our seating arrangement. i'm sitting with duan yi and i'm in front of manda! haha. duan yi's quite fun. and she's really artistic too. haha. i remember today when she lost her wallet she was very worried cause she had lots of valuable things in it. luckily we managed to find it. or rather retrieve it cause it was in the geberal office. let's c. i remember last wk i went icc twice. then we celebrated my grandpa's bday at a teo chew restaurant. food was quite nice. then...on sunday for church class they discussed with us on marriage and relationships and stuff. ok i guess though, i dun really know wat's the use of it now. anywayz, life is STILL boring. wake up, off to school, back from school, laze around, bathe, laze around, watch tv, laze around, use the comp, laze around, eat, laze around and sleep. it's the same routine. like we're robots or something. sighs. i wanna go overseas! but no money=(.if only i could migrate..haha fat chance of that happening. oh yeah. to 'I', we'll always be there for u man. no worries. hope u've got u're stuff settled already=] okies, i'm gonna chilax now, or try to get some hw done. hahaahahaahhaha yeah right.

life's a bore

2009-03-24T15:52:00.004+08:00

omg. my blog is so dead. i shall try posting more often. holidays are over. damn. and i didn't do anything. nothing at all. except cheerleading. which if i might add, was like from 8 to afternoon. well, most of the time. haha but all the hard work and the damn lot of muscle and body aches were worth it. even though we didn't win i had a hell lotta fun!!! haha those days every morning manda always has to wake me up. i set my phone alarm clock, manda wakes up then she wakes me up. hahaha so retarded. anywayz, it's back to school ppl! i hav gotta start studyin. lol. just now manda was ignoring me so i was like talking to 'myself'. irritating manda and stuff. i pretended to be me then i pretended to be her. haha. that's another fun point abt being twins. she's so fun to annoy. haiz..life is so stressful now. not as much as other ppl but still is stressful. i hav no idea wat i'm studyin...i wanna go out! watched the mall cop movie a few days ago. quite funny. and also watched race to witch mountain a while back. i wanna watch hotel for dogs! haha. man, i haven't even started on my hw. didn't even do my holiday hw! haha. so screwed. and to *that* person, i'm not really weirded out. just worried. since u say it's fine then i'll believe u and lay low. for now. haha. but don't u go any further, hear me?! lolz. remember the conversation with i think manda, tatty, ernie and hij? haha. i think u do. anywayz. peace ppl!

shit happens

2009-03-08T21:16:00.004+08:00

omg. so many things' been happening. i'm so damn confused abt so many things. my feelings=confused+stressed+happy+excited+lost+useless+frustrated+disappointed in myself+(a lot of other things)=a whole lot of shit. haiz. i juz dunno wat to do. it's not anyone. it's me. wat's wrong with me? everything, i'd say. but then wat's life without a little drama? for crying out loud, i'm juz deluding myself. i'd rather live on a rock and know nothing abt life than be in the position i am now. but i already knew these days would come, when i would have to face all my problems. all my locked up feelings and secrets that i never wanted to open. haha. i sound like i'm abt to face my arch enemy or something. maybe i am. but i'm juz not ready to. or rather not willing, to start over and let go of things. life now sucks. still have a truck load of hw to do and i haven't even started any. probably not doing as usual. haha. oh yeah. watched pink panther and push not too long ago. quite nice. one is very funny and stupid. the other is very action packed, a lot of guns were used in the show and was very loud, had a headache after watching. haha. but all in all they were nice. well at least here's a part of my life that i can enjoy.

nothin much.

2009-03-06T20:00:00.004+08:00

gosh...it's been a while since i updated. anywayz. i dun think i'm gonna post anythin abt the past week. too many things. can go ammy's blog to see haha. so abt THAT day, the outing with ??? and ??? and ??? was quite fun. they might think i was acting weird and stuff. can i help it? i think cause it was a while since we talked. but i really enjoyed the outing. they were behving so siao and stuff. i was kinda laughing like hell inside but just didn't show it. it would be weird if i suddenly burst out laughing when acting all quiet and stuff right? moving on. CONGRATZ TO ????? AND ????? FOR U KNOW WAT!!! haha. i'm so happy for them. oh yeah. another thing. i got into the interact committee! yah. though not 100% enjoyin it cause manda didn't get in. it's like so...weird and devastating. weird cause she's not with me and stuff. i knew she was gonna cry=( but then i had a meeting and couldn't follow her and after it ended, she was gone. her bag still outside the room. i was like looking everywhere and calling her almost 10times but she refused to pick up. i was worried sick. not knowing where the hell ur twin is, is a freakin torture i tell u. luckily she soon picked up and yeah. u know how the story goes.(if not go to manda's blog). but i seriously wasn't irritated manda!! just confused cause i didn't know what she wanted me to do...anyway. shan't talk abt sad stuff anymore. still one week left to the 'return of my phone'. haha. oh how i miss it so. lol. kiddin. but really, it's been so troublesome usin a replacement phone. can't remember what else i wanted to blog abt-_-'so cya!<3

this sucks!

2009-02-28T13:00:00.000+08:00

haiz....didn't have time to post yesterday so i did it today. alright. i'll start from the beginning. so school was kinda slack and fun cause we were having free period in pe. as you know everyone would take out their 'gadgets' and stuff. then mrs ang came in. (i'm not gonna post angry stuff cause i've already used up all my anger yesterday) in a moment of folly, i let my guard down and my phone was on the table. so she saw it. conficated my phone, elizabeth's ipod and fuzzy's phone and ipod. then we had to see her during recess. she told us that we'd only get our stuff back in 2 wks and on top of that our parents had to do it, they had to sign some form stating that our stuff got confiscated and we we have to do this retarded reflection..-_-' there are questions like what values will i incorporate to make things better...how stupid is that? anywayz, then at first mrs ang said we couldn't get back our SIM card and we were like WTH?! luckily ms(or is it mrs?)yvonne tan came in and said we could. but you should have sen her face. it was like saying "serves you right/you asked for it/i'm disappointed in you" and whatever. so after that fuzzy and me were like swearing on our way to the bb court. then i called my mum with manda's phone and she was like "lesson learnt"...yeah right. so we had interact after school and my day started to get better. they were having their class party. quite fun and entertaining. very fun, interesting, unique, lovable and so on kids. 1e2 is the luv!!! then when we had to end my heart was like gonna break cause it was our last buddy session. so sad! so we said a few words and stuff. then went home early cause we were going out for dinner. and it was because i was replying my mum as she smsed me to come home early for this that i had my phone confiscated. so suay. but i also had 2 or 3 smses from my fren actually. heehee. so went to JUMBO! ate seafood and stuff then wetn with manda and my little bro to the breaker. and yeah. came home. borrowed my uncle's phone so that i can be in touch with civilisation then came home, watched tv and fell asleep. haha. the comp with all my stuff was still on. but what the heck. anyway. going out with manda and some frens now. ciao!

wooh!

2009-02-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

today was supercalifragilisticexpialidociously awesome!!! (minus the super damn bad CA grades i got that are like below the passing mark) went out with ammy, amira, fuzzy and imran. oh wait! before i go into detail about today, i tell you one super super suay thing that happened to me yesterday. ok. at the back of the class there's this like noticeboard that is bordered with wood. so there was this day i was late for school and i ran into class then my bag got stuck on the wood(cause i think it was a little broken and sticking out) and i didn't know so i just pulled my bag and the wood came out a lot, but it was still attached to the board, it was just..erm..sticking out and hanging there i guess. then retribution struck! haha. yesterday during bio, i was walkin near the board and my pinafore got stuck. i very blur so i didn't know at first, then i so stupid go and pull my pinafore...'RIIPPP'. OMG!OMG!OMG! my freakin pinafore got torn. and it wasn't a tiny little itsy bitsy hole. it was one f*ckin HUGE hole! i could like stick my hand through it! so suay! then jolene they all and the people sitting around there saw and started laughing. (pai se, pai se) we were all laughing like crap, i laughed until i got stitches and cried. haha and the worst part was....it wasn't my pinafore. hahahahaha! it was ammy's! sorry twinnie! i was borrowing it and i guess she's never gonna get it back. haha. i took a pic of this 'memorable' incident but i don't have the stupid phone cable to transfer. haiz. lol but i'll bet you'll laugh like crap if you saw it. the people that saw were like "WTF, OMG, WTH HAPPENED, HOW COME SO BIG, U OK" and other stuff, all of their eyes almost popped out of their sockets and they're jaws dropped. wahahahaha! you should have seen the look on your faces people! it was priceless! well i had to tear the pinafore but it was worth it. some more, i did very badly for my bio CA and this really cheered me up. anyway back to reality. today was raining cats and dogs and we had to run in the rain to get to the bus stop to go pp. we were soaked through and through and it was freezing cold. luckily i brought my jacket haha. so met imran like at the pedestrain crossing. (he was waiting for us and trying to dry himself off i think) so we all waited under the shelter for the man to go green. then we ran across the road, still getting damn soaked, and into pp. we were laughing and freezing and sneezing all the way. haha. so we(excluding imran) went to dry off and stuff at the ladies and headed to swensens! wooh! so we ate, talk, laughed like hell, ate, talk, laughed like hell, ate, talk, laughed like hell, and it went on and on and on. so fun! then after eating, fuzzy and amira went off to buy stuff and manda and me talked to imran about a lot of stuff.(hey immie, if you need to talk to anyone or just want to crap around, i'll be there for ya!) so then after a while, my two gal friends came back and we went off to diva. bought earrings and stuff and went home. took bus 32 from katong there. we took a long way home, going to the park near fuzzy's house, stopping there for like 10min+ and then left to send fuzzy home. idled around her house cause she didn't want to go home for dunno how long. imran kept on trying to kill me, pushing me onto the road. haha. jokin jokin!=] u know i still luv ya! so anyway. then we just walked towards the mrt and amira went off. imran, ammy and me walked home together cause we stay quite near each other. reaching home with my socks and shoes all drenched ain't a nice feeling. so yeah. slacked and watched tv. then bathed and ate dinner. stupid brothers go out eat prata never invite us. hmph! lol. then manda and me talked to someone about something and like yeah. wish the best of luck to that person! and now i'm blogging and manda wants to use the comp. and i haven't even done my freakin 18 questions of emath! i don't think i'm going to do..too lazy. oh yeah! before i forget, here's fuzzy's rhyme part 2!~(1st 2 lines by me, 2nd 2 by ammy):

funny fuzzy
kamikazi
calls her darling
hunny bunny
====================
whole rhyme:

fuzzy wuzzy is a bear
fuzzy wuzzy has no hair
whenever she goes out to play
everybody say she's gay

funny fuzzy
kamikazi
calls her darling
hunny bunny
====================
wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

2009-02-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

today was boring..well at least the first part was. haha. if some of you know what i mean about ?????. anywayz, i'm like doing the gg poem thing about trees-.-'manda go and 'bang se' me. oh yeah! i came up with a rhyme for fuzzy! well, i added the 3rd & 4th line cause the 1st & 2nd was already created by someone. so it goes like this:

fuzzy wuzzy is a bear
fuzzy wuzzy has no hair
whenever she goes out to play
everybody say she's gay

wahahahaha! dunno if it actually makes sense but it's so hilarious. i am so funny! hahaha! just kidding. i'm feeling random again today so i'm gonna post random pics again.

this is a pic of me, manda, fuzzy and amira

my lovely family!(excluding me and manda...)

my very very lovely family(including me and manda!) haha

my relatives! (my pap's elder brother, his wife and my cousins) my uncle and aunty are also our godparents so we call them daddy and mummy. haha weird

ok. i gtg sleep. haha my pap's here and he's gonna kill me if he finds out i'm blogging! shall post more random pics 2morrow! or some other day...

super ultra fun day!!!

2009-02-21T19:23:00.000+08:00

feeling random right now so i've decided to post a random pic that my cousin took on a holiday with us

today was totally awesome! went out with primary school friend sheri and manda and later on fuzzy and tanya! so we were like supposed to meet sheri at 10am at tampines mrt but knowing us(manda and me) we only woke up at around 9.40...luckily sheri was smart enough to not leave her house early cause she said she knew we weren't ready yet. so anyway went to TM and ate swenzens for lunch. did a lotta catching up cause haven't seen her for like almost a year or more. talked about a lot of random stuff too. then walked aimlessly around and bought some accessories. and walked some more to century sq. then back to TM then to and fro and ya, you get the point. met fuzzy and tanya at about 1plus i think then went to dunman sec for their carnival. met marc khoo from church class. didn't do much there. went to the haunted house which was suprer hilarious! hahahaha! when we went in, they closed the door and the guide was infront, followed by sheri(the brave and not easily scared one), me, manda, fuzzy and tanya. so we started walkin. manda and fuzz were sceaming "ah! something touched my leg! ah! something touched me! ah! something wet me!(water that they were spraying at us for who knows what reason)" and so on. so at first i didn't know what was happening cause my leg was like one of the lasts to get touched. sounds weird...but anyway then when they grabbed manda's, she was like screaming and scared the shit out of me then i was like "what?! where?!" and then they got to my leg and i screamed too. lol so retarded. but other than that nothing much was scary. fuzzy was screaming all the way(fine not all, but almost), i was clinging on to sheri. manda was like strangling me with her hands on my shoulders and sheri was like "shut up dudes!" or "get lost! go away!" to the 'scarers' and we all sort of laughed all the way too. haha. so retarded. then when it was like 3.10 or something sheri had to go to church. so sad! will miss her much! but we'll get together again soon. i hope. then went to TM again. forgot what we did. fuzzy lookin at things to buy. we just follow her then at like 4plus had to leave to go to the tampines swimming complex to watch my lil' bro swim-_-' so said bye to fuzzy and tanya and walked there. the wind was sooo nice! so strong and cooling. then watched my lil' bro and cousins in their swimming lessons with my aunt and manda. fell asleep on the chair. then went home and so here i am. really fun day=) manda, sheri, fuzzy & tanya are the luv<3 hope i get to this kinda thing more often

I'm sick and tired of people like them

2009-02-21T00:24:00.001+08:00

Too many tears have been shed
Too much pain in her eyes do i see
The problems had better cease to exist now
Or unforgiving shall the consequences brought upon you be
Disgusted and tired am i
Watching this repulsive game of yours
And should this torture you bring to her continue
Devastation and chaos to all shall you cause
Heed my words
For they are what i advise
And should you continue wth this selfishness of yours
Misfortune shall you arise

Hooray!

2009-02-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

hooray! CAs are like finally over! except for english next week. i'm so gonna fail everything...and i'm so damn tired this week! everyday sleep like for 3hrs or less, except yesterday cause i fell asleep kinda early. but guess for how long did i sleep on tuesday night? 20min! wooh! crazy right? i know. insanity hit me at that point of time. i'm so glad i'm finally gonna be able to sleep longer. but my guts are churning in anxiety, fear, any kind of emotion you can think of that makes you just want to die. but anyway, looking on the bright side. I went out today! yay! with manda, fuzzy, ten, amira and tanya! we went bugis to take neoprints and walk around. we laughed a hell lot until can cry. so fun! cause they made my day a whole lot better. i love u guys to death! now for the funny events that occured!

~On bus 32 going to kembangan mrt~
1st-(wasn't in it so not very sure if it's 100% correct but you'll get the gist of it)
Ten: My guardian's son got married and is working in australia now. His boss bought him a JAGUAR for his birthday leh! A JAGUAR! (goes all hyper)
Manda: Where did he catch it?(all start laughing like crap)
[hahahahahaha! so funny! cause manda didn't think the jaguar car was that big of a deal so she thought ten was referring to something really extraodinary. a real jaguar! she's so cute. luv her much<3]
2nd
Manda: (she was referring to the small thing on the front of a jaguar car) I don't like things sticking out.
then ten starts laughing like shit! laugh so hard that (cause she's sitting on the chair) she keeps on banging the chair. hahaha. bad Ten. think sick.

~Waiting for mrt~
saw a cute ang moh baby.
Me: So cute right?
Manda: (didn't see the baby but still luvs ang mohs) Ya! i think ang moh babies are the cutest!
Someone else: I didn't know manda was so desperate.
Fuzzy: Hey! then can say to him "hey baby."
like literally, cause it's a baby and the other meaning, which i'm not gonna specify. let your own thoughts lead you to whatever conclusions you want ppl! the funnier thing was that fuzzy didn't even know that her words worked two ways until we told her...lol.

~IN THE MRT~
saw a guy that manda and me knew
Me: he's the guy standing closest to us.
Ten: THAT ONE AH?!
...i bet you're thinking he was super hot or something right? wrong. there was an old man standing next to us! hahaha. we all start laughing like shit again. i didn't mean literally closest to us. cause he was standing with 2 of his friends and ya you get the point. we laughed a hell lot in the mrt. in fact we were laughing like everywhere but i can't recall all the events so yeah.

In bugis, what happened i also forgot already. when i remember i post again. but i remember amira almost went UP the DOWN moving escalator. haha so funny. then we take neoprints and we met amanda fong, jing yi and jovina! so happy. such a small world. then at bugis mrt we saw kimbo, wei si and denise! such a very very small world we have. then manda and me went to paragon. at first we went towards pasir ris cause not sure if mum will allow. then she said can so we alighted at kallang then go back towards city hall. so retarded. then at paragon met our mum. then when at paragon, manda and me also almost went DOWN an UP moving escalator. haha so stupid. then anyway, before going home we went to this like 5-STAR cafe/restaurant that was super posh to buy chocolates...i u would expect to find fine dining and exquisite meals and stuff but no. it was a damn high class place for desserts...very surprising! so i guess that was my day today. real tired and i haven't even done my homework or bathed! ah! so dead. can't wait for the next outing ! wooh!
(and to that very special person, if you are reading this, i'm really sorry and hope we'll tide over this problem together)<3

life sucks now

2009-02-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

waah!!! omg i'm so gonna fail these freakin CAs! yesterday was social studies and biology and i think i'm gonna fail. but today is WAY different. i KNOW i'm gonna fail! it was chemistry and literature and i didn't even study for them...i couldn't even remember one page. there was this question about sepeeation techniques that i didn't do so there goes 8 marks. then the freaking balancing equations in total is like probably more than 10 marks down the drain. i might as well not have done the stupid papers. but what the hell is the school thinking? concentrated CAs aren't gonna help us in the long run. we're just cramming up the info for tomorrow's paper and we'll forget it the following day. like this, we might as well not take exams. and i had like a 7 out of 15 for amath. damn it. whatever. but amira's in my house now! yay! and at least i didn't do too bad for the geography test. 7.5 out of 10! but manda just had to get a 9. haiz...fuzzy couldn't come cause she had tuition...but don't worry fuzzy! i still love ya loads<3!!! got to study maths and geography now-_-' stupid school. i hate the exams BUT LUV THE PPL!

screw this paper
screw that paper
srcrew yesterday
screw today
screw tomorrow
screw my life

hurray for friday!

HAPPY VALENTINE'Z PPL!

2009-02-14T21:13:00.001+08:00

finally posting! wooh! firstly, i'd like to thank yin hui for helping me with my blog, paige for answering my questions, everyone whom i asked for help and manda for putting up with all my nonsense. haha. anyaway back to reality. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PPL! AND HAPPY B'DAY TESSA! luv ya much! THANK YOU to everyone for ur prezzies yesterday and for making my day=)hope u liked the gifts from us. yesterday was like the best valentines ever! but i was so tired coz i slept at like 4am making the gifts with manda-_-but it was fun cause we argued nonstop. haha. i luv all my frenz and ammy!!!

Love is like the ever changing seasons
With feelings being tossed
At times it's warm like the summer sun
And at other's cold like the winter frost
Sometimes it's like the flowers in spring
Young, fresh and blossoming
Then at times it's like the autumn leaves
Beautiful, colorful and relaxing
Like the clouds in the infinte sky
In your heart is love sealed
Sometimes you it's forbidden as it kills
And sometimes it's an escape as it heals